To Poet or Not to Poet

I’m not a fan of feelings. I don’t like to talk about myself. I despise letting people in just enough to expose the real me. People are aware of the basics. I have a twin brother - the north to my south. My hair and eye color - dark brown,  like pools of melted dark chocolate.  I always wear a beanie. My love for coffee that anchors me to the tide that is the day. Some recognize the middle pieces. I adore anything apple-cinnamon scented. Julie Andrews is my role model.  If I could marry a man like Jack Pearson, I would. I live by the words of my zodiac - Scorpio. Passion.  Black or white.  A living and walking mystery. But no one knows the deep parts. I’ve suffered from moderate anxiety since the age of eleven. I’ve never been on a date. The older boy I loved in high school? He and I now yearn for the same guy. I’m terrified of falling in love. I fear that parts of me  will misinterpret other aspects.  Maybe the opening lines

This is the story Of a damsel in distress She never thought of herself As the most beautiful woman Plain Plain Plain That's what she thought About herself She knew She was loved Parents, friends The ones that always stayed with her But never from the ones That mattered to her The ones That didn't know her This is the story Of a queen A woman who knows herself One who loves herself Beautiful Beautiful Beautiful That's what she admired About herself She knew She wasn't always loved But she learned to accept herself Even if the ones that mattered Didn't The damsel in distress Must realize In order to become A queen She must learn to Love herself

An ode to Ted Berrigan Martin Luther… 1483… Sparked a reformation, turning the world upside down. Josh Peck… 1986… The step-brother that idolized Oprah and screamed “Megan!” Germany… 1939… Night of the Broken Glass. Night of a broken people. Winston Churchill… 1942… A speech that signified “the end of the new beginning.” Miranda Lambert… 1983… The country girl whose house built her a Grammy. Sesame Street… 1969… Children engrossed with  a yellow bird on a new media platform. Vietnamization… 1970… One week of no war            no hate. Just peace. Bill Gates… 1983… The man who forged a new window of technology. Berlin… 1989… A wall collapsed, fifty years after the mass destruction of a nation Me… 1995… Who do I aspire to be?